Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Opportunity

It is said that 'Opportunity only knocks once.' In my life opportunity has knocked many, many times. I have rarely had the courage to open the door. I am honest enough to admit that now but it is a truth that I have never fully realised until recently. I consider myself lucky because unlike the saying, opportunity has continued to knock on my door. I hope that one day soon I will have the strength and courage to open the door and seize it with both hands.
Just Me.

Sunday, August 07, 2011

Deal with it.

How would you react, if someone close to you asked you for a favour? How would you react if that favour was something you were not comfortable with or even felt safe doing? Would you turn it down? Would you agree to do it despite your misgivings?
I agreed. I was insincere in my agreement and my misgivings were intense. After an entire night of agonising over this favour, I awoke to find that the deed was no longer required. I am not one to wallow in guilt or regret. Guilt and regret are the two most pointless emotions. Guilt and regret stagnate you when you should be moving forward.
It isn't so much regret that I feel but insecurity. I did not want to do this. I did not feel comfortable doing this. When someone wants a favour off you, they overlook every objection and every misgiving. What most people forget is the viewpoint of the person carrying out the favour. It is a favour. By definition it is a willing act of aid from one person to or for another. If there is unwillingness in the act, it is no longer a favour, it is an obligation. When you are obligated to do something, you put your misgivings aside and you carry out your duty to the best of your abilitie, uncomfortable or not. That is not the case with a favour.
I refuse to wallow in the buts and what ifs and maybes. I did not feel comfortable doing you this favour. I was not in the position to do you this favour. I agreed, against my better judgment and despite this, you walked away and refused my offer - without even doing me the courtesy of telling me first. I have nothing to be sorry about. I refuse to be guilty about it. I regret nothing. Deal with it.
Just Me.