GRATITUDE

I have made it a resolution to keep a gratitude journal. 

Of course, I procrastinated to the point of exhaustion. 

So here is my journal entry for the day, entirely lacking in finesse. 

1. I am grateful for a family that stands by decision to put my mental health ahead of my career. 

2. I am grateful for forgiving friends who readily accept my absence and welcome me back into their fold. 

3. I am grateful for the friend who has held me accountable for my failings as a friend. It is a mistake I will not repeat again. 

4. I am grateful for parents who are even now striving to plan for my future, although I am fully capable of taking care of myself. 

5. I am grateful for the ability to offer assistance that makes a difference to the persons assisted. 

6. I am grateful for each day and every day. 

Just Me. 

TAKEN FOR GRANTED

A refrain has been echoing in my head. 

"To be, or not to be, that is the question: 

Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer 

The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune, 

Or to take arms against a sea of troubles 

And by opposing end them."

Of course Hamlet was contemplating suicide and I am merely contemplating a change in career. A change in career is life altering. One might even say life ending. To be honest, it feels almost like giving up. 

A change of career this late in the game is actually quite terrifying. I don't know if my experience counts for anything. I am certain my degree doesn't count for much. The current situation is insane. 

However, it is at this point, that personal well-being should be taken into consideration. I need to figure out what makes me happy. I need to know what my aspirations are before I can achieve them. 

So now I have taken the plunge and resigned. During the exit interview, I realised that perhaps I did not fight hard enough to make things the way I wanted. That's my lesson learnt. 

And now to confront my long time fear. Am I good enough for the job market?

Just Me!