Goal

I need to find my motivation. I have one goal. I need to get down to a size 16 by September. I promise I will do whatever it takes to get down to that weight. I will change my diet and my lifestyle. It will happen. 

I have my priorities. I will give up sugar. I will walk 1000 steps a day and I will increase my water and protein intake. 

I will be fitter and stronger and comfortable with myself. 

I will do whatever it takes. I am not opposed to a bout of bulimia or anorexia to get what I want. 

My Birthday Report

 So I turned 47 yesterday. How did the birthday go, you ask? Well it went very very well. 

I was blown away by the outpouring of well wishes from almost everyone I know. Even people I had barely met reached out to wish me a happy birthday. I got Facebook wishes from people I met donkeys years ago. I mean I know it's Facebook so it doesn't really count, but the truth is it was still heartwarming. 

I spent the day taking of myself. A mani pedi, a massage and a facial. It was good but it had elements of pain in everything. I was super uncomfortable during the mani pedi. The massage was amazing and that was the best part of the day. The facial was incredibly, incredibly painful but in the end, worth it. My face is all nice and smooth although I have a bit of a Rudolph look going on. 

So it was a nice feeling and I am quite proud of myself and the self-care I gave myself. The real chicken soup for the soul moment happened the day before when I realised that for the first time I was in a company that I could be myself in. I don't have to pretend and I don't have to hide. I can be on a diet without any repercussions or unsolicited advice. 

For the first time in a long time I have hope that I am going to lose the weight on my own. 

Just Me!